Monday 23 July 2012

The Knight of Flowers

I sit in the grass wondering about life at the moment. The green blades mocking me for all the little things I do  say. Who cares what you think? Go out there and do what you feel is damn right in your heart and mind.

Wait...

Letting your head rule over you can be just as bad as letting your heart rule you. If you must do something find a balance between the two. Your heart usually knows what is right and your head always tells you what to do when you have to. So if your heart tells you go for it and your head telss you one step at a time, just go with the gentle ebb. It is not like it will kill you to be patient. The Romans did not build their doomed empire in one day. It took centuries of blood, gore, betrayal and hope.

That is something we all seem to have forgotten. Your heart will want it so bad and your head knows how to get but you will be impatient. I know it for a fact that if you wait and never let anything kick you down and step on your chest keeping you there, you will rise above it and get what you set out to do.

This might be confusing, but it is still the same important to me and maybe to some down-on-their-luck person reading this. I used to listen to my heart a lot more than I needed to and I let my head take control more often than wass required. However one day, I discovered a balance between the two.

My heart said what I wanted to be and where I wanted to be and my head told me how to get there. If you look at me right now, I am a lot happier than I ever was. I know how to go about chasing my dream and thanks to my big head, I know it will take a lot more than thirty seconds to get to where I want to be.

So to all who read this; find a balance, life is all about a balance.

The knight of flowers,
a man in the brightest steel,
with the sharpest of blades.
A man who sees no impossibility.

Samuel S.B.

Think of the steel as your head and the blade as your heart and you shall make sense of my poem/.

Friday 13 July 2012

Fear

Someone once told me never to be afraid to be afraid. That person said it is easier to just go with the flow and never have a regret. I was young when they told me this but I think that statement applies to life. Just think about it. How many people actually achieved something by sucking it up and doing it.

Fear is actually something that fuels the soul. We all have dreams; big dreams. Everyone wants to do one thing or the other. We all want to get that which we have always dreamed of but never do.

The reason almost everyone never tries to get what they want is because the are afraid. I know what most of you are going to say, "Yeah we have heard this horsecrap already. What are you going to say that is new?"

I am going to say to you all, just embrace the fear. What do you have to lose if you embrace fear? The answer again is nothing. Just look at it in a simple way. If you embrace fear you'lll just do it and go ahead with it. If you are never afraid then that is really not a big dream for you.

So in simple words, embrace fear and go on ahead with it.

Again I will leave you with a poem;

Fear grips the heart.
Hate overpowers the fear.
Turning the pain into suffering,
hiding behind a grand veil of vanity.
The soul cries out for mercy,
begging to be reunited with bravery
But bravery doesn't mean lack of fear.
Alas! Alas!
I will cry for fear of being brave.
Even when I must not be brave;
I have a choice,
a choice to either run from suffering
or to fight the fear and hatred with the only weapon availed to me;
Fear.
I embrace fear and brave its hollow embers to go ahead and do what I must

Samuel S.B.

Wednesday 11 July 2012

Words From Surrey

Henry Howard, the Earl of Surrey once said and I quote;
'The happy life he leads, the quiet mind, be equal friend. wisdom joined with simplicity. The Knight dischared of all cares.'

Never has a man used truer words because we all seek that which we can never find. We seek the peace of mind, the summery escape of our souls; away from the dangers and vulgarities of this cruel world. We all want a place that we can call our own. In truth we all seek our own castle; A Castle of Peace. We find such a place in bits and pieces. If my memory serves me right, I found my castle once when I was just 14 years and I have never managed to find it since.

I remember the cool river falling over a beautiful rock into the valley; the plush green scenery that managed to calm me. It was quiet and peaceful. I felt connected and contented for those few minutes. I felt like there was nothing going on in the world. It was only me and my simple calm place, away from the angry eyes of earth. I felt at peace and safe.

You might wonder why I am going on about something I felt six years ago and wht cares a simple fourteen year old could have had. My answer is simple and direct. I have tried to find that place to no avail. I have needed to find that place now that I am older and still it eludes me. I wonder if I will ever find it again and feel at peace, even if it is for a few blissful minutes. I know for a act that we all seek that little castle away from the world and we all barely find it.

With that I will leave you with a poem composed by me.

Henry Howard, theEarl of Surrey once said,
'The happy life he leads, the quiet mind,
be equal friend.
Wisdom joined with simplicity.
The knight discharged of all cares.'
Never has a man used truer words;
for we all seek that which we can never find.
Only in glimpses do we see it,
but never to the full.
Show me a man with a quiet mind,
I will show you thousands that have tried invain to seek it.
For never was there a simpler thing to find;
and in its simplicity joined with impossibility.
Barbarians, Romans, Greeks,
those before us and those after us seek it,
A quiet life,
without foe, strife or bitterness,
and never shall they find it.
Alas!
My friends, even the flower desires the quiet life.
A place to grow unhindered by the cruelties of mankind's imagination.
Where it will blossom and hope not to be wilted.
Alas!
I agree with the deceased,
the knight discharged of all cares,
the equal friend.

Samuel S.B.

If you read this, you will wonder how it is that such can be achieved. The Buddhists believe it can be done by constant meditation, but i disagree. They might find a semblence of it but I know for a fact to achieve the quiet mind you are either glimpsing the keeper of the dead or you are in his realm.

So we are all left to toil in desire of something that we have no chance of glimpsing...